Hi.

I want to talk to you. Sure, we've talked before, actually, we talk a lot... but we've never really really talked. You seem to cut your emotions off towards me. I want to js sit down and find out what you're really thinking. Talk over life. You were, and still always will be my oppa. Although you don't know it, you're the closest I've ever been with anybody. But now it's time for me to ask. Who are you? How are you? How have you been? I miss talking to you, and you know that. I've told you that. But you know what I hate about our friendship? You're closer to my best friend, and you tell her everything but when it comes to me... you only joke around. You only talk about going to raves, doing drugs, or going to some party...but why? Why can't you tell me the things you tell her. One day you'll realize how special you are to me, one day when I'm not bugging you and I'm out of your life, you'll remember all the times I tried so hard to js be accepted by you. And you're gonna regret it. I don't really care what others think of me, really. But whenever I'm around you, I care so much. I think twice before I say something, or I usually js shut my mouth bcus I don't want to say something stupid. That's why whenever I'm around you I get really quiet, I don't make it too obvious, but I do. Can't you accept me for js me? No? Is that too much to ask for. It's hard pretending to impress you and talk to you and knowing that you'll never know the real Nicole Kim. The real Nicole that gets really nervous when you come around, when you lean on me, or when you js say "Hey Nicole, wsup?!" Yes, my away msg ws towards you, and you found out. Sweater weather got me thinking about you. You were joking, but I wanted to say so badly, "Yes ________, it really is towards you, and thank you for being there for me when I ws freezing my ass off." But I'll js stick with joking around with you. Gotta uphold being the Nicole you know, right? But all I'll really get is the "Lol, _____________________." And I don't think you really know how much that hurts me. But I know you care for me, you said so yourself. Do you remember? You said it heaps of times, but I'm not sure if they're the truth. So, your codename is oppa. Because thats what you are to me. You're one of the guys that I consider family... but you'll never know that. Will you?