Genuine .

Hard word to describe, eh? Dictionary.com defines genuine as "possessing the claimed or attributed character, quality, or origin; not counterfeit; authentic; real." There comes up another word... authentic. Is anyone in the world really genuine? Authentic? Sadly, no. Or in my eyes, no one in genuine. No person in the world is them self. As human beings, we are all ideas of other people. Although a single human being cannot be genuine, our feelings can. I experience genuine happiness today. Sure, it lasted for a little bit.. but it wasn't artificial. It wasn't me wishing that I was happy so I was. It wasn't drugs, it wasn't a sugar rush, it wasn't anything. It was me accepting myself for who I am and not caring what other people thought of me. It was weird, I was always so caught up on other people's thoughts, what the newest trend was, or anything. I was what other people wanted to view me as, and today, I just decided to be myself. I accepted myself for that, and no one really noticed a difference. It was weird... because I didn't care if someone was like "Wow, Nicole's being weird today," or anything like that. I just wanted to be who I wanted to be. Another thing that made me happy was just being worry-free about love. Too many people in high school stress over love and break ups. I'm sorry to break it to you, but we're in high school. Focus on what's important and don't waste your childhood years. My secret? I love watching kiddy shows, just being a kid makes me happy. I don't want to ever grow up, but at the same time I'm getting more mature. It's a weird process. I don't need to look cool, I don't need to dress to impress, I don't need the drugs, I don't need the image. I need to be Nicole Kim. I accept that I'm still a kid and I love it. Learn that, maybe you'll find some happiness too. Get into a DILLIGAF mood, life will be so much easier. :)

-Nicole.

Girl: Why do you keep on following me?
Boy: Because you’re so pretty and I think I’m falling in love with you.
Girl: Really? But you haven’t met my friend yet. She’s prettier than me and she’s right behind you. The guy looked behind him but found no one.
Boy: Are you making fun of me? There’s no one behind me.
Girl: No, but if you really love me, you won’t look back.